Time to say so long. The game is over. It is time for me to cash in my chips and tip the servers.
No need to worry any more. I don't know what I expected out of life. All I know is I am miserable now. I have been told, "Life isn't easy." I believe that. "Life is what you make of it." That is real tough when you don't know what you want.
Giving up, giving in, whatever. I have been fighting myself for too long. I have been afraid of succeeding. I have been afraid of failing. I have been afraid of losing control. I'm tired of people worrying about me, asking me how I'm doing and not believing me when I give them an answer.
I have no more answers to give anybody. I have fought with my life for fifteen years. I am too weak and tired to continue.